Saturday, July 5, 2008

Stinky Self Esteem

Isn't it interesting how you can look so forward to seeing old friends but as the time draws closer, you start to have your doubts. I am being totally honest here, so don't laugh. I am approaching my 20th high school reunion. I have been looking so forward to this event. But as it is now only a couple of weeks away, I am getting cold feet.
I really enjoyed high school. I hung out with a lot of different people and tried to be nice to everyone; therefore, I think that I was liked by most people that knew me. I was not popular by any stretch of the imagination but I think that I managed not to tick too many people off. I have fond memories of high school and those that I spent some time with along the way.
But the thought of meeting those people again, after so long, kind of makes me nervous. Most of the people I knew back than are now working with small families and many still stay in touch with each other. I on the other hand, am a stay at home mom with a very large family and have not have time over the years to do to much at all. Of course I look older and am not exactly the same size either. Don't get me wrong, I am not an "old fatty" but not exactly what I would like. I have those high school fears of walking into the room and no one talking to me. I will be taking my husband with me, so to be honest, I don't want to look lame in front of him either.
I have said that I would go, so I won't back out, but I sure hope this is a positive experience for me and that I might even rekindle some old friendships. I think that I would enjoy some" girl time". Anyway, just my thoughts as I listen to some great "80's" music.

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